Do you ever get in those moods where you don’t feel like reading or watching a show or you don’t feel like getting on the internet or social media or you don’t feel like sleeping or like crafting or shopping or cooking but like… YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING. Yeah, that’s how I’ve been feeling lately.

Time has a funny way of sneaking up on you but holding you hostage at the same time. The last year for me was full of changes, unknowns, and opportunities I didn’t know I would take. I’ve moved forward so quickly and with purpose that I feel like I’ve reached a point of stagnation for now. However, my life HAS gone in the direction I had planned – but with some twists and turns as with anything. God’s plans are always higher, grander, and full of purpose. Sometimes though, it’s impossible to have the foresight to accept that fact.

I’ve been struggling recently with the idea of contentment and accepting that my life is going in the direction I want it to at the pace it’s supposed to. Big changes are on the horizon – but at an unknown, uncertain timeframe that honestly fills me with an anxiety I don’t usually experience. It’s frustrating to have an idea of what is to come but no definite answers.

However, with frustration comes excitement. I’m aware that things may not be perfect or happen when I plan or expect them too. My faith cannot waiver and times like these are when it truly grows.

My motivation wanes and my passion fizzles when things don’t go the way I want them to. I used to let the bad things that happen to me control my life and let myself wallow. However, I’ve been trying to look at the small blessings.

Everyday, I am learning to let the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire myself and not terrify myself.

Change is hard, unknowns are difficult, but faith in these trials makes the outcome worth it.